My Day Off…

I had an interesting day today.

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist.  And an appointment to get my taxes done.  My 2006 taxes.

First up.  The doctor’s appointment.  I don’t mind seeing my shrink.  He’s very good at what he does and over the years has changed my life for the better.  It also helps that he’s a little cute.  Today’s appointment was just like usual.  He wanted to know what was going on in my life.  What I was doing for fun  How work was going.  Both theatre and waiting tables.  Then there were the usual questions about whether I’ve been thinking about killing myself.  Any drug use?  How much drinking?  Then we talked about the changes in my medication from last month.  He upped the dosage on one and it definitely seems to be working.   And I told him this.  I’m sleeping less, not as grumpy, haven’t had any anxiety attacks, etc.  We then talked about the stuff I hate talking about.  My sex life and my eating habits.  He’s not judgemental about either thing but he does have his concerns.  First he thinks that I should probably find healthy venues for my sexual outlets.  Not because there’s anything wrong with where I go, but because I’m never going to find a partner or even friends in these places.  I’ve always hated talking about my sex life so it’s never fun for me.

And then we moved on to my eating habits.  I haven’t mentioned it here, but I’ve gained back a lot of the weight I lost last summer and last fall.  I don’t know why this has happened but it has.  For all my trying to get back on track I’ve not been successful.  This lead to a very serious conversation today.  My doctor feels that I’m using food as a means to keep people away.  If I’m trapped in my fat suit, and don’t feel comfortable putting myself out there then I won’t.  And things will stay status quo.  He feels this this is a bad thing and told me as much.  He said to stop worrying about what will happen if I lose the weight and keep it off.  We can deal with those issues when they come up.  But to get started losing the weight.  He’s never talked to me so direct and forceful before.  I don’t know how I feel about it.  But at least it’s got me thinking.  I do have to do something, I’m just not sure what the answer is.

And that was the visit to my shrink.

And then I went to get my taxes done.  As I mentioned it was my 2006 taxes.  I started to do them myself last spring while I was living in Iowa but they became too complicated to do on Turbo Tax.  So I filed an extension.  And well, I just never got around to doing it.  So before I fill out this years taxes, I have to do last years taxes.  So I headed off to meet Mary, the lady doing my taxes.  She was very nice.  But I’m not sure she’s the best person for the job.  My roommate’s accountant recommended her and as I said she’s very nice.  But I began to have my doubts when she started asking me what the pop up window on the computer meant.  She also couldn’t decide what I could and couldn’t deduct.  For a while I could deduct my moving expenses.  Then I couldn’t.  Then I could.   Unfortunately it’s too late to really find someone else so I think I’m just going to have to trust her.

I have to drop off some information that I forgot today and then she’s going to do all the calculations.  I think when it’s all said and done I’m going to owe money.  She was just a little vague on how much.  And then I sitll have to do this years taxes, and I KNOW that I’ll owe money this year.

It’s going to be a couple of very tight months.


4 thoughts on “My Day Off…

  1. Lemuel March 7, 2008 / 06:10

    If we lived a little closer, I could give you a little goose once in a while to keep on track with your weight program. 😉 Seriously, in the short time I’ve been reading you, I sense that you truly have a lot of positives to bring to a relationship. There is no need for you to “hide”.

    I’ve done my own taxes for many years. It’s part of my stubbornness. I’ve used TaxCut now for a number of years, but I had used TurboTax at one time. I will hope that your preparer knows what she is doing.

  2. Jason March 7, 2008 / 08:50

    Thank you for sharing about your dr. visit. I find it much easier to avoid dealing with dating and finding mr. right when I am on my heavier side. It’s a ride I definitely need to get off of.

  3. Donnie March 7, 2008 / 16:47

    I’m glad I finally got back to visiting my blogroll. I’ve missed you, Maddog! *big hug*

    I know 110% about hiding within a ‘fat suit’. Hell, I did it for all of my life. I wish I were closer so we could keep each other on track.

  4. John March 7, 2008 / 20:22

    I am in the process of losing some extra poundage. I have been doing rather well. I have been exercising 3 times a week and I am watching my intake. But I am still unable to get out there, so to speak. I hate myelf. How do I get over that? I know this is not motivatng, but I enjoy your blog and I needed to vent. I am sorry if I, i am just sorry.

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